Friday, June 29, 2007

Morning Page 6/28

Morning Page: Thursday, 6/28/07

How does your investment in your research question and the students’ BK about your topic affect the research?

I wonder about this topic because I was typing up questions for some of my colleagues this morning over email. It occurred to me as I was typing that it is a possibility that my own enthusiasm for my topic might in some way skew how the kids react to it. At first, I thought this would be a good thing, that a teacher’s enthusiasm should be evident in her teaching. Anything else would be boring, wouldn’t it, on the part of the student and, I would imagine, the teacher. Who wants to sit in that class? But, the concern I have for that regards the actual research. Does it taint it? Influence it?

I often feel troubled somehow about how the kids enter my class thinking about poetry, or worse yet, not thinking about it at all. That sort of sounds awful, but some teachers just don’t like poetry and either teach it because they’re told to or don’t teach it at all. I’m that way with certain things. I skim over grammar and root words, I’ll admit it. I’d rather get to the more fun things to teach for me. And maybe that’s where the enthusiasm element comes in. It’s more than possible that the kids pick up which things I’m more enthused about teaching and then it’s contagious. This is not to imply that all kids live for poetry once they’ve read it in my class---quite the opposite. Though, I would have to say the kids seem to have at the very least a different appreciation for it and for what they, themselves, can do with it. Many do really get into it, however. I think that maybe they’ve also only been exposed to the basics of poetry in their short 14 years (limericks, haiku, etc.) and the crazy, abstract things appeal to them somehow. Or maybe it’s all of the above: they’ve only seen a little poetry so far, other teachers are not as comfortable teaching it as I am, and I am overly enthusiastic about it.

All of these elements intrigue me almost as much as what the kids actually do with the weird stuff I put in front of them. Once they settle in with the rule-less environment, they find they have some degree of investment in sharing their ideas about it and passion or conviction can be heard in their discussions. Not every day, certainly. But it’s there. And I just wonder why. What can I do to ensure it’s always there? Can I transfer that kind of feeling into everything I teach, including (gulp) grammar, etc.?

Thursday, June 28, 2007

Wednesday, 6.27 morning pages

Wednesday, 6/27/07

If my research were a car, it’d be an old-school, original VW bug….small, not totally safe, full of personality, weird to look at, and something that can be used for years (I hope!)…


If my topic were a color, it’d be yellow…..I don’t really know why, but that’s the color I think of when I think of the kids that intrigue me…

If my topic were a weather pattern, it’d be…..a flood….insert obvious metaphor here (flood of information, flood of inspiration….flood….lots of everything all at once….overpowering)

If my topic were food, it would be an anchovy pizza…everyone likes pizza but hates the gross anchovies….everyone who teaches loves to teach their passion but not everyone can enjoy teaching special needs kids

If my topic were an animal, it would be…my cat…she is tiny but totally the boss of our house….she is moody and unpredictable and can take down a dog of any size….i think this research is unpredictable (as is the nature of our profession which is the coolest part of it) but and mysterious to me and I enjoy reading more and more about it, just like I love to watch my cat leap off the couch onto our poor, unsuspecting chocolate lab….I'm the lab

If my topic were a TV show/movie…it’d be the Odd Couple….one of my all time favorite shows….the kids I’m curious about the most are a mix of both Oscar and Felix from one minute to the next and crack me up as they try to fight it out internally right in front of me as they earnestly ask a question or make a comment….their thinking reminds me of that show too because it is unconventional and something some might consider safe to just get by with and not edgy or possessing any hidden spunk

If your topic were a famous person…it would be Mattie Stepanek….a child poet who passed away from the genetic disease he knew from the start would kill him…his peaceful words and wise insight into the world are startling and prophetic…they have a hauntingly precise tone to them that innocently strikes one’s core

If your topic were a country…it’d be Germany----once divided ideologically and politically but reunited now. Not all Germans are totally happy with it, but can at least see the some of the reasons for the reunification and all can speak the same language and share the same history and culture now.:???? Special and regular ed sharing ideology and methodology…????? This metaphor is still under construction……….

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

6/26 tuesday morning page

Artist Keith Haring began his career as a graffiti artist….who many people didn’t think would amount to much….Have I given any thought to looking at any research models in the other arts to help develop your own research question?

Wow. This is an insightful prompt, which comes as no surprise to me, considering the author. Well, I think Albert Einstein flunked out of high school, and I know Bill Gates dropped out of college. I really, really like the idea of people who other people doubt really hitting something out of the park, whether it’s CSAP, a test, a presentation, a football game, or whatever. I try to give my kids examples of this kind of stuff as often as I can and some of the posters in my classroom are about failure (Michael Jordan has a really good one) and what can come of it. I think kids just don’t get taught “life” much and therefore are so busy figuring that out that they forget to see themselves in it; therefore, I feel they don’t understand their own potential. Or at least some kids that I tend to fixate on early in the year. I think my own personal experiences have made me ultra-observant to kids in that predicament. They are overburdened too early and I sometimes take time in class to teach them that it doesn’t really have to be that way, that it’s not that way for everyone and that if they could see into other kids’ homes, they’d see more comfortable, functional dynamics.

So I love the idea of using models in other arts to develop my research question. I just don’t know of many and wonder if I’m versed well enough in other arts to do them justice? But I like it. I like the idea of it. I use a lot of art in my class, as do many of us, I would imagine. Sometimes we make the art, but in terms of poetry especially, we try to explicate a piece of art as we would a poem (Can one really explicate a piece of art? What is the verb for what one does to a work of art? Explain? Tell the story of it?). It certainly feels natural to include art in a literacy class. I often think of my class as more of a humanities class, which I also try my best to explain to my kids. We talk about ethical and political issues often as a result of looking at Picasso’s “Gernica” or reading one of many of Ginsberg or
Whitman’s poems. It’s interesting. The kids have a lot of ideas and are often willing to support them, once they can take a temporary leave of all the other garbage they’re worried about and just put it out there and see what happens. They know full well they’re safe to do so in my class and that saying or doing anything to just please me makes me want to vomit or throw a temper tantrum, so that is never an issue.

Should I try to incorporate more artistic research in my own? Or musical research? Would that be broadening my scope too far or would it be a nice companion topic to what I’m already doing? Thanks for the idea! I would imagine that I’d come across different disciplines along the way anyway, but now I am more open to including it!

Monday, June 25, 2007

6/25 morning pages

topic: what's your plan for the ai and your research?

well, since i've changed my topic a million times, my plan for this summer is to get my act together. how's that? i need to research some things that i plan to look into further during the next school year. i have a book or two to read and many journals to sift through. i am excited that i messed up so weirdly and have kind of reversed the order of things (i didn't do any research last school year) because the next school year will start off more focused, i think.

my topic, simply put, is roughly about how the special ed kids in my classes excel doing things the other "regular ed" kids don't do so well. i have been lucky to work with some crazy special ed teachers who are willing to try new things with my classes and challenge their kids daily. by doing so, having some special ed kids in class has enhanced the climate and thinking going on in there. i also wonder how my "special ed" class (labels are sooo silly) can take a subject and run away with it when my other classes are okay with it, but simply don't always take my breath away like the kids who are not supposed to be able to do it.

i’m excited to find what’s already out there and hope to add something new and relevant to it all. we’ll see! (disclaimer: this is the fourth time i’ve typed this entry—it keeps erasing my stuff!!!--- and i really did have some more brilliant things in the first draft that i’ve now forgotten, but you get the idea…..)